Blog Makeover

First off, let me start off by saying that computers DO NOT like me. Sure, I can facebook and twitter and sometimes, when I'm lucky, I can even compose a few emails. Beyond that, though, NO WAY. When I have to get into settings and networks and all that crazy mumbo jumbo, I'm lost. As you may can tell, my blog has shown that. I clicked and googled enough to figure out how to put a background up for the first couple of months but that was about as good as it got...until my dear ol' friend Valerie came along :). She recently started a blog and hers looked all fancy schmancy so I thought, who better than her to teach me? So, like the good friend that she is...she took like 2 hours out of her night to help get my blog all beautified. I felt so bad too because tonight her significant other had come to hang out with her, and the entire time he was here, she was helping me with this. Backgrounds, headers, colors, fonts, pictures...you know, the important things in life. Well, now I hope to post more because I have such a lovely backdrop to compose my words on. bwaha. So, if you are reading this...Thank you Valerie!!!

Endless Summer

Long time, no see!

My life has been kind of a whirlwind the past few weeks what with taking & passing the OAT (barely...but I did it!) and running around everywhere getting together transcripts & rec letters & writing essays and personal statements....whew! My brain has definitely been going full force lately. This afternoon I am submitting my application to several schools. I'm just so exicited and consumed with the idea that in a year's time, I could be living somewhere totally different than where I am now. I have lived my entire life in west tennessee, and I would LOVE to experience somewhere else for awhile. In the meantime, I am off for the next year without a single plan or agenda except for working four days a week. I know that I am not going to know what to do with myself. It's going to be sooo nice to read all the books & watch all the movies I've always meant to get around to. AND if anyone out there is bored, do not hesitate to call because I will obviously have no excuses to turn down a night out! Needless to say, I am pumped about my time off to clear my head and give my brain a little rest. Endless summer here I come.... :):)

Basketcase No More!

Sometimes, every now and then, I'll read the last post that I wrote and think about how it's crazy what a little time can do, even a week. The last time I wrote that I was in such a horrible place mentally and emotionally, but now I am happy to report that I am moving forward! I forgot what amazing friends and family and God that I have and sometimes you need something like this to remind you why. My life has been so busy the last few days studying like crazy for the OAT. The test is the day after tomorrow! yikes! I literally cannot wait to take it. Even if I do bad, I will know that I still prepared the best I could for it and that's really all that I can do at this point.... I'm just so ready for it to be OVER so that I can get on with the fun things in life...like celebrating my best friend and roommate's engagement! I thought that after recently breaking up with someone that I would be kind of bitter and/or jealous of seeing others all lovey dovey but it really is the opposite. I am so happy for them and can't wait to start all of the planning!

What really brought me out of my bad mood slump officially was going to church this past Sunday at Highpoint. I absolutely love this place and I felt like what was being said was meant for me to hear. The main verse was from 1 Peter 5:7 ..."Cast all your anxiety on Him because he cares for you." In summary, it was all about how everything will be alright in due time. There are always going to be times when you are struggling and suffering. Life will not be easy or painless. But it is in these times that God will restore you and make you strong, firm, and steadfast. This just really hit a nerve with me because I have been so enveloped in self pity lately that I haven't really thought about why I am doing this to myself. Well, this was the moment that I came out of "the funk." I am truly blessed in so many areas of my life, and I always neglect to realize that. At that point, I decided that I was not going to focus any longer on what I don't have as opposed to what I do have, and I honestly feel a thousand times better. :) :) Keep me in your prayers this week as I take my big test!